Finding 'you'

So close to the next day,
Where I can slowly get away,
From the things which I am hiding from,
From the things that are going to come...
It's like hiding in a big field,
With nothing and no one to be my shield...
Some one to lie with me in the tall grass,
Someone to help me forget about the past.
You're the one now in my dreams,
Even when we're on different teams...

I listen to the wind as it passes us,
As fast as a speeding bus...
My eyes follow you as you walk,
My ears listen as you talk...
I want to feel close to someone,
I want to feel like I belong,
So I keep on living each day,
Yet it is so easy to get away...
To pull the trigger to this gun,
Stop my pain so you can have fun...

But then again, I like to be me,
Sitting in the grass - I'm free...
Free to grow into who i am,
And I open the door to slam...
Slam the door shut hard,
But even that won't stop me being scarred...
Yet everything points to a new life,
So I will put away my knife...
As I want to be with you for a long time,
And this line doesn't have to rhyme...
But then again this is about you and me,
And one day I will write a poem about us by the sea...

Because one day we will walk hand in hand,
Step by step across the sand...
There will also be other things we will do,
People will look and say who?
Who are they? The people in love,
Or as we stare at the stars above,
People will smile at our names,
As the world goes up in flames...
Because you and me will see only each other,
There will only be one another...
You will be my heart, my soul,
You will make me completely whole...
The only thing I have left to do,
Is to find the guy I called 'you'...

Fairytales

I look into the misted sky,
Wishing I could grow wings and fly,
Get away from my worries and frets,
Forgetting about any regrets...
The time has come to turn back,
Before the birds eat my breadcrumb track,
Return to my tower on my own,
Where I can sit down and moan...
When will my Prince come to the door?
When will my Prince sweep me from the floor?
I fall asleep on my bed,
Thinking about all the people who are dead...
The dragon is stronger than those men,
I clean the floors again and again,
My step mother wants them cleaner than clean,
And then the fairy godmother gave me a bean...
I plant it in the earth outside,
Hoping it will be my guide...
But in the morning I understand,
Nothing comes easy in this land...

Failing To Realise

Tell me a story or tale,
Before I realise that I can only fail,
I loose my thoughts to people of the night,
I loose my blood as I fight...
I leave it on my kitchen floor,
On the handle of the door,
As I leave to see the light of day,
With no real words I can say...
I still have a scar right down the middle,
And I now make a joke out of it and giggle,
Even though every memory makes me bleed,
This heart isn't as strong as a seed,
Not even as strong as a feather,
So I sit outside in the beautiful weather,
As the rain thuds against my skin,
That's when I realise I cannot win...

Problems & Solutions

All my surroundings swallow me within,
My shoulders feel light without sin,
I have done nothing wrong to trap me here,
Yet all I do is spill each tear...
No one seems to hear my silent cry,
I might as well sit here and die...
For no one would notice if I was gone,
No one could tell me if I was wrong,
As I’d be up there in the stars,
Probably sat on red, dusty Mars...
As the twisted feeling take over my mind,
There will be nothing felt of me to find,
Except the body in which I left,
Yet my soul will never rest...

Each and everyday I hide my feelings,
And I hide their hidden meanings...
Just so I can sort everyone’s sorrow,
And for this God’s strength I’ll need to borrow,
As no single person can cope like I do,
I wish you could see what I do too...
To understand my future, present and past,
Is to understand the things that will not last,
Like my life and how it will end,
I could end it now with a bullet to my head...
But I must be strong for those who need me,
So my soul can’t yet wander free,
For everyone wants me to sit and listen,
That’s my only given life mission...

So here I sit alone again,
With a chest full of thumping pain,
No one hears my cry during the day,
No one hears the words I say...
Bottle them up so no one sees,
Lock them up and loose the keys,
That’s the only way I will ever get through,
And this way of life has never been new...
Each problem has a simple or complex solution,
Even the biggest problem like pollution...
It may not be quick or easy,
But at least it gets... fixed...

Touch

I am but a bird up high,
I am but no one until I die...
I may not dream of anything,
But I listen to the other birds sing.
People run round in circles day by day,
They all have so much to say,
Although this is very true,
There is nothing left to do...
The people think way too much,
No second thought about a touch,
Touch of two lips in a second,
These are taken for for granted, I reckon.

You cannot take a touch back,
Those two lips cannot get the sack.
When the sea reaches sand,
Then air reaches land...
These are the touches that go unseen,
Noticing these keep us keen...
Keen to understand the world,
Watching as the clouds are twirled.
Who is to say 'I know all'?
Who can say when and how we will fall?

On My Own

I always stand all alone,
Even when I'm not on my own.
I hide away my thoughts and feelings,
Scared that someone may really see me.
I keep a smile stuck on my face,
I still can't sit still in my place...

Surrounded by all my friends,
Sticking with their latest trends,
Friends may see behind your lies,
But no one sees into my eyes.
Showing the slightest bit of emotion,
Could cause a big commotion.

I try to forget the saddening past,
Unfortunately it won't go fast...
Time won't pass at normal speed,
It only lets my heart skip a beat,
The broken heart in my chest,
Will not heal as I rest...

Rain Drops

Dropping from the sky above,
The gods give them a little shove,
Pushing them off the clouds,
Nothing is out of bounds...
Tapping on my windows and door,
Chilling strangers to the core...
No time to escape the heavens shower,
Nothing in this world has enough power,
To stop the rain drops in its track,
Causing the water to turn back...
Being pulled into the earth,
Helping the plants through their birth,
They use the rain to grow up strong,
They use the rain before it is gone...